So, we are expecting!

Michael and I have been married for almost 4 years now. Ever since I was a little girl I knew I wanted to be a mommy....a teacher and a mommy actually. I love children, especially babies and I knew this is something I always wanted. All of our close friends have recently had children and it was so exciting to see them go through that but the emotions of knowing that this was not the time for us was also very hard.

People very naturally ask, "So when are you guys having one". My heart would just break and I wanted to scream "I would love to have one now." I jokingly asked Michael what he thought about trying to have a baby and he shocked me by agreeing. I was very excited and really just thought we would get pregnant right away. We only tried for three months, thinking it would take longer, and we were able to conceive. Never had I known the disappointment of seeing the test read negative or having wait a whole month just to find out we weren't. My attitude about it really wasn't right and I was demanding that God do things my way. I took a test on April 27th and it was negative. My heart just sank. I was crying and started praying. I decided (as if I had another choice) that this must be for the best (since clearly God had allowed it) and began to see all the reasons that this was a good thing after all our lives are about to get crazy

**Side note** My husband has joined the marines and will be leaving for boot camp in July. He will then be doing a lot of training until around the end of December. **

I had purchased a 2 pack of tests and for some reason I woke up on the 28th and just took the other one. Actually, I have a weird obsession, if there is a pregnancy test in my house ...I have to take it. I know ...I'm weird. Anyway, it came up positive. I about fell over. I couldn't believe it. In 2 days I have felt the full spectrum of emotions, from sorrow to joy. After gaining confirmation from yet another test and calling the doctor, I began to settle into the idea that we were pregnant.

Michael had no idea of this, since the day before I had been so upset. I knew this was the chance to really surprise him. I had a store in the mall deliver a bib that said "little Rays fan" while he was at work. Needless to say he was very surprised and also very excited. I think both of us were in shock and really still haven't wrapped our heads around this.