Over the past few months I have been feeling anxious and discontent for lack of a better word. Things in life aren't just as I would like them to be and for those of you who know me, that's hard for me. I am beyond blessed and have my needs provided for and a lot of my wants but things just aren't "perfect". In the recesses of my mind I was along thoughts to creep in like---
Maybe I should look into a job to pay for more of my wants, I was happier when I was working (totally not the case), I am a bad housewife anyway and on and on the list goes.
Maybe I should look into a job to pay for more of my wants, I was happier when I was working (totally not the case), I am a bad housewife anyway and on and on the list goes.
I know these thoughts are wrong and I should have spoken truth to myself but sadly did not. Spending time in the Word and reflecting helped me realize the lies I was believing. God has called me to this place at this time for a specific reason. Maybe I am not able to teach Morgan great truths and the age of 10 months but I can show her love and build a foundation for those truths. I can pray that her heart will be ready to hear the truths and that they will take hold in her young heart.
When I stopped focusing on what wasn't "perfect" in my mind I was able to see that there is really so many things to be thankful for. My sweet baby girl, everyday is a gift and I praise the Lord for entrusting her to us. I am so very thankful for a husband that shares my desire to have me be home during these crucial years in Morgans life. I am thankful to the Lord. He is so patient with me and tenderly leads me in the way that I should go.
I hope I haven't bored you all to tears but I wanted to share what God has been teaching me.
