Ahhh...emotions!

So far I cannot complain about my pregnancy. I have been nauseous pretty much every afternoon from about 3:00 on but I am so thankful that it hasn't been the entire day...yet. I know so many people who are just in bed ALL day and very sick. I have however been experiencing emotions that are whacked. Now, mind you I am a VERY emotional person as it is so add the extra hormones and you have a storm waiting to happen. It seems to be worse at night, probably because I am tired at that point.

This Sunday was Mother's Day. Being as I am only 6 weeks along I am not feeling very --mother-ish. Everyone was telling me Happy Mother's Day and I started to wig out. Sitting in church my mind was running. What in the world have we done? This is clearly not good timing? How in the world do I think I will raise a normal child? When I see Michael after boot camp, will he still think I am pretty...I will be so fat? and on and on it went. I was looking out across the sanctuary at the many mom's who were sitting and I wondered how I would ever stack up. It was as if God whispered into my ear..."It's only by My grace". I started thinking about that. Really, how many people have loved God with all of their hearts and raised children with "issues"? I wonder how many children actually turn out as their parents originally envisioned. That's when I realized how foolish my thoughts had been (as some of you concluded at the beginning of this post). I could be the smartest person and have all the best tools at my disposal but for God's grace I will be an utter failure.

So back to the title, emotions....can I really control them at this stage in the game? I know many say that it's impossible ..but with God is it possible? I know that I cannot control them perfectly but can I be more balanced because of my relationship with Him? One thing that has really helped has been listening to an amazing sermon I found on trusting God, it has been a wonderful exhortation when I become anxious. What are your thoughts? Anything that has helped you?